I'm feeling lost. Perhaps disconnected. It's as if the Greek and I have been playing for pole position for the past year. I've been in the lead for the past year, which has cause him much discord. Now, I am, rightfully so, stepping out of that position.
I was needed there and, I believe, if his ego and logic could have seen that, this madness would have been over quicker.
Now that I've been in the pole position for this project, I have lost some footing in where I should have been all along - ?
I need to realign. I need to pray. I need to find my most humble spot and begin to learn. I need to open my eyes to those around me and be where I am needed. Spiritually enough, this applies to my personal life as well. I've been consumed, and, as such, blind to my surroundings.
Perhaps this feeling of lost doesn't have be so ominous. Perhaps, once again, I'm exactly where I need to be.
Perhaps it's time for my friend (the Greek) to shine, and me getting out of his way could mean a more real, grounded, and sustainable work-me.
All I can do is trust that I have something to offer and humbly allow for the idea that, at some point, my contributions could become redundant. And that if that was the case, it would only mean the opportunity to move into something that was better aligned with my self.
The ground can shake and I can still be okay.
