I just don't know. Feelings of contentment yet also disenchantment. I wish or long for something a little more moving, a little more fitting. Today, all the puzzle pieces fit neatly. But I want a different puzzle. I think, maybe. I don't know.
I feel as if I am not quite one with the philosopher's stone. Like I'm there, but not quite. I want to rise above and float, live outside of this everyday life while my body stays behind and completes the required tasks.
It requires much attention to ones true self to maintain this. A surreal distance but not a duplicity. Just a taking my soul for a walk kind of maintenance.
"Remember, we are not here."
